NxP...

Let's go! Give me something to make me want to stay. Broken pieces and fractured dreams are all you left, but they led me straight back, and here I am, collecting all your promises collecting dust in rooms we never used, and we both know that honesty has always been an awkward look on you.

I'm not trying to make you come clean, I just want you to know this: This will be the last time I come crawling back to you. I won't make you change your mind. I'm not trying to make you change your mind.

Let's not pretend like this was personal. I was just a game, and you forgot the goal. I'm taking over. I'm gone.

I know you think that you know better, but you don't seem to understand the difference between breaking hearts and breaking down.

I'm not a product of your fantasy. I'm just a slave to its design. And you act like you don't notice the way that you've been holding me back, but I'm breaking free from all the lies you told. I've never been so happy to let go.

This was personal. I'm not just a game, and now you've lost control. I'll take it all, and I'm done.

Twenty-Seven Years

Okay, seriously

Twenty-seven years

I believed in myself when I had no one else
To believe in
I kept thinking that I could find a way through this life
And nothing could keep me from there
But somewhere along the way
I discovered that settling
Is easier than dreams
Something made me change my direction
Something told me it was best for me

Now it's been
Twenty-seven years, and I'm back where I started
I'm prepared to attack
Nothing holding me back
I'll be everything I wanted to be

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I'm gonna stop there. This sounds like a shoddy off-off-off Broadway musical. It's an idea, though. Maybe I'll work on it.

A brief, but poignant love poem

Every time I think of you
It makes me want to puke

Burnt out
Closed down
Consider this when you consider me
Take in
All this
Consider it when you could be free
Is this what you want?
Am I worth the time
Or the effort?
It won't be easy
And I don't make promises
I've broken too many before
All I can do
Is warn you away
And lock up my hope that you'll stay