A Letter from my Former Self

A year and a half ago I wrote a letter
I put it in an envelope and sent it off
But then I did a strange thing
I chose to let that letter represent me as a person
Instead of me at a point in time.
I am not the same person
As 18 months ago
I hope I'm not the same again
That far away from now

Collaboration

Can we work together?
I've done this long enough on my own
There's only so far you can go alone
Let's pick up the pieces
And pick up the pace
And find ourselves together
We'll make a home out of this place

Day 7

"Prepare the way," he said, but just how unprepared I was for what came next. I almost tried to run away. I never thought the way that he was speaking of could be for me. It seems I misunderstood, because what he actually said was, "I will prepare the way." If only I would listen better and not be so wrapped up in my own thoughts, I wouldn't miss what is going on around me.

Day 5 of 7

If you need me I'll be standing

Right where you left me

Turning this hourglass over and watching the sand pour

Then turning it again just to bring it back to where it all started

But I can't go back

No I can't go, and I wouldn't even if I could

If I had known then what I know now

Oh, but I couldn't change what happened

And I wouldn't even if I could

So I'll just keep staring at the sand as the sun falls down lower and lower with each turn

Like a giant grain of sand in some cosmic timepiece that only God is big enough to see

I can't even fathom something of that size

But there he is, living inside of me

So if you need me I'll be standing--

Well, you know where I'll be

And if I see you through the haze of falling grains of time

I'll force a smile and spread my arms wide

And hide what I really mean

Day 4 of 7

Too many nights I've played on repeat
Laying alone but not falling asleep
Time passes on as I watch and I pray
Hoping tomorrow shows more than today
Time passes on as I lie here alone
Just me on my own

Day 3 of 7

I don't know what I'm doing here
This place so far from home
I traveled across the world to find
A place to call my own
But still this road has not been easy
Especially alone
You set my feet on solid ground
Each step I take then look around
My blinders on I focus in
To finally stay on task
I'll find a way to make it
I'll do anything you ask of me
So when the end comes at me
I'll meet it like a friend
Knowing that my final breath is nowhere near the end.

Day 2 of 7 (John 16:32-33)

In this world you will have troubles, but I say to you take heart. A time is coming and has come when they will tear us all apart, but you are never alone. Remember what I told you, when you're down and on the run. In this world you will have troubles but this world I have overcome. I have overcome this world.

Day 1 of 7

I don't know the future, no matter how I try. I'll never be the one who has a choice but to follow blindly into what comes next. I'm trying to accept what I don't know. For as long as I remember I've been the one who answers no, but that stops now.

These words of mine seem foolish now, but I pray you take to heart. I'd rather fail a thousand times than let this fall apart. I know the road ahead gets rocky and you never promised much, except to say as long as I will follow, you won't let me down.

What will you make of me? Will I be the one to take you at your word and follow? For everything I've done I've earned just a place in the ground with my name that will slowly fade. Nothing lasts forever in this world. Your call lingers in my ears, a challenge to live by faith despite what I've seen and who I am. Will I be the one to follow you?