With the overwhelming folly of a boy who never knew better

I always had envisioned this a safe haven; a place where I could write of feelings disconnected from my everyday life. I had always envisioned this as a safe place. But of course, like the things before, I took to the platform amid my own hurt, and it projected beyond what I had anticipated, and before I knew it, I had hurt one of my closest friends. I considered for a long time deleting this blog. I considered what it would mean if I did. I thought, "Maybe I'll just delete those posts, or hide them," and honestly can't remember if I did that or not.

The truth is, I was hurting very much, and confused, and in all honesty, I haven't moved too far from that place. I'm still hurting, and still confused, and it may show up again in the things that I write. I can honestly say that the things written here reflect my state of mind far more than they reflect actual events. If I'm lost, or confused, it will show. If I'm angry, in all likelihood I will anger someone. If I'm hurt, I have the distinct possibility of hurting someone else. I had always considered this a safe place. I get maybe 5 views on anything that I don't share to Facebook, and now that I deleted Facebook, I expect 5 will be a high point for anything I post.

So if I have hurt you and you haven't told me, I apologize. I understand at least one of you mistakenly thought that my ramblings in rough-hewn verse were meant to be taken personally, and though I don't know who you are, again, I apologize. Unlike past platforms I've had in younger and decidedly more passive-aggressive years, it was never my intention for anything on this site to hurt anyone else.

But I plan to move forward, and continue writing. I took a break to really dive in to who I am, and where my focus is. I wanted to really know if this thing was worth doing, since it turns out I definitely did have the capacity to hurt someone through it. But in the end, writing is a part of who I am, and sharing it publicly is a large part of what I would like to do.

So if you have enjoyed my posts in the past, I hope to get back to that point. The rust is real, and as people, we are ever-changing; I am no exception. Expect more exposition, but not less verse. More varied topics, and probably a few studies in different forms. The goal is to bring you something every day, but focus on the weekends. And with that, I leave you for tonight. Sleep well, and wake to a brighter morning.